Writing a bit about me is always such an awkward thing to do, I have got to the grand old age of thirty seven and finally started to realise what i am about, my likes, dislikes and what makes me tick yet i would think anyone who knows me might have a whole different opinion. I can still be the little hot headed red headed toddler that used to get so frustrated at life and upset that i had to be put in a cold bath to calm me down but I have slightly mellowed.. well i say that i have just probably replaced the behaviour with inappropriate fun and humour as an outlet. I have a sensible side that trained in psychology and to be a clinical hypnotherapist where i have worked for the last four years helping people predominately with anxiety and depression. This has taken it toll at times especially as i battled with personal situations and at time felt i had very little to give. I have a son who is not only a kind and caring young man but he keeps my days going with his quirky personality, i had him very young at 15 (shock horror i know) so has now just turned twenty one. He works away a lot as a welder so in the last year I found myself experiencing empty nest syndrome far too early in life, i found myself searching for a purpose that I couldn’t quite put my finger on. The whole country then went into lockdown world in fact this forced my hypnotherapy clinic to shut and my survival mode to kick in, what could I do to stop myself turning into a raging alcoholic? what would I consider to be my strongest asset that I could utilise at this difficult time to stop me slipping into a lonely dark state of depression as I live on my own and need to be able to interact? It came to me very quickly my ability to care, i would say I have always loved to care for people, that feeling of being needed, being able to be kind and see how happy it can make someone. I quickly realised exactly what I was going to do I would train and apply to be a live in carer looking after somebody elderly in their own home working on a week on week off basis. I have four sisters who I am extremely close to we all have such different and individual strengths and weaknesses it makes an interesting mix, yet we all are big carers and have good morals. Between us we have fourteen children, we still speak frequently and are more or less close to both parents (which i know is unusual in some big families) we were lucky enough to grow up with our Nanny and Grandpa living in an annex attached to our house they kept us very grounded, so I all in all really do count my lucky stars every day for the wonderful support system I have going into the unknown in the job I am about to embark on and just in life generally as I am rapidly approaching forty single yet two marriages under my belt so not bad going (wink)